We're all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars....

Hola!!!!

This is my new blog post!! And I must say, it's far less dreary than my last one ;). I do feel a lot better putting that negativity behind me. I really appreiated Baron's post on the subject. I'm sure if I had done, what he does then I would've felt just as good as I do now, without tarnishing a girl's rep! Oh well, I'll save that till when I'm more mature :)) This past week was pretty fantastic, here are some of the things that have happened and/or will happen!


I will be traveling to New Orleans in April, and back home to Cleveland in May. Upon coming home I'll be there for 5 days!! It will most likely be late May, so circle the whole damn month! Let me know if you'll be in town when I visit!

Yesterday I decided to remove my most greatest desire in all of food.. pizza. I will no longer eat pizza, for I feel it's nullifying my workout regime a bit. Along those same lines I'm going to post a new picture of my chest. I'll attach a poll to see if anyone can notice an improvement, or "deprovement"? (not a fucking word)

I've been doing work with photoshop cs2, including brochures, fliers, webpages, pamphlets, and business cards. If anyone needs any of the following, look me up. I'll do ya for cheap :p.

Alot of the photoshop work I've done has been for Lees Auto Body and Custom and they have a few cars going to the Seattle Roadster Show
Not all the cars are old school, many of them are modern with a ridiculous amount of airbrushing and "bling". When I post my brochures, you'll see what I mean. I've also heard that a copious amount of drinking will take place during that show.. I am excited!

One last tidbit, this post is going to mark the start of me photoshopping one of my friend's pictures onto something pretty hilarious! You'll see what I mean :)
The first one is to the right, and you can click here
for a bigger version of the photo! I love you Jeff! hahaha

Personal Shoutouts!

Vinny - I'll never question your judgment of character again.
Jeff - The check is in the mail!
Andrew - I see good things with this trade.
Shannon- Don't go in a fucking hostel!
Baron - Where's my invite? :(
Erin - Crying party! yaa!!!
Evelien - Muah!!
Kris + Mark - This week is huge for us!
Jeannie - Super solid advice as always.. grrr :p
Reese - Fun times dude! Don't go! :(

But soft, what light through yonder window breaks?

So,

Over the past few months, I've passively tried to improve my skills as an effective communicator, a thinker before a speaker, and act with integrity in touchy social situations. This blog has acted as a buffer to absorb some of the negativity I'd typically throw upon certain people in my life.

Good blog, woof ;)

Another minor rule I set for myself here was to not to post someone's name and concurrently speak negatively about them. I just thought that was tacky and would go against the moral set I've tried to instill in myself lately. Well, as many people here say in Seattle, "All that has gone to fuck-all". To translate, this one and only time I'm going to vent, use a name, and never speak of and to this person ever again.

Heather Tucker, you are a user. You are an egregious cunt who doesn't even deserve the disdain I have for you. You're a filthy cheater, a pathological liar, and a self centered dirty ass whore.

To think that I wasted over a year of my life on your shady ass is a disservice to the sanctity of which is commonly viewed as a "relationship". You familiar with those? Relationships? Not the one nighters you so frivolously indulged in while under the guise of "being taken". But a union between 2 people bound by trust. Be that as it may, I despise you and your cruddy existence. And no longer shall my thoughts encompass you. May karma come back to you, as it has come back to me.

For those who are reading this, and know little about me, I must say that the filth in the above 2 paragraphs aren't an accurate symbol of who I am. I'm not overly vindictive, insane, and malevolent. I'm very easy going, always smiling, happy, non-chalant etc... I don't get overly angry, ever. I mean, I never get so thoroughly angry as to type out what I just did. Perhaps subsequent comments to this blog will substantiate my perceived demeanor.

So Jeannie, I've tried to roll with the "integrity" platform. But the person above deserves the previously mentioned sentiments, so.. discuss away!

Valentine's Day..

First off, pay no mind to the font. It's this way in lieu of the holiday, not because of my gayness. Well, for the first time since 2002, I'm single on a Valentine's Day. For the most part it's bittersweet. It's nice to not feel obligated to buy gifts, get time off work, or conform to the holiday's traditions. On the other hand, it sucks being alone and not having someone wake up beside me wishing me a Happy Valentine's Day. Everything listed I had anticipated. But what I did not anticipate was the feeling I would have when I would reminisce about holidays past. Nor the feeling I would have when I would think about others Valentine's Day. I kinda get the feeling that says, "oh, they're doing that...". A mixture of helplessness, distraught, and sadness.
I guess the day couldn't end sooner.

iNtRoSpEcTiVe

I'm not sure what is a dream and what is real at times. Or if real is a real word and if words even exist outside of our imagination... I still can't say for certain if falling asleep is opening your eyes in the morning or closing them at night... and I'm lonely, but not sadly. Everybody is alone. I want love like love wants love..oxygen and drifting clouds. And im not scared to be alive, nor do I fear death. These days more people are. Money is an illusion. The world has been gaining some sort of "momentum" over "time" and every single day it's spinning faster. People grow up too quick. Someday I'll start to....

1 week, complete

Just finished my 7th day in Seattle, and I have mixed emotions. For starters, I love the people I'm staying with, they're pretty fantastic. I'm basically staying here for free in exchange for my work into their companies. Jeff has said it best, "So you're basically pinball boy huh?". I really am. I do a myriad of tasks from website design, photoshop, auto glass installation, commercial window tinting and marketing. I've been made privy to a potential salary coming my way soon, which is very exciting!

Last night we had a phenomenal evening. We spent 4 hours boozing at this luxurious hotel in Kirkland while listening to Darren Isaacs play the piano (personal friend of my boss's). His music facilitated the ambiance of the evening. After that we went to a few clubs/bars where I finally met good looking Seattle women!!

I got a phone number from this pretty blond who practices at this local ballroom dancing studio. Dance Sport International is the name of the studio. We exchanged some texts last night and have been invited to come on by. I suppose I'll wait to see if I was sales pitched, or if she was looking to be social. I feel that it was the latter, but I've been burned before :).

Anyway, we hit a few more bars, screamed to Def Leppard, got some Jack in the Box and went home. Upon arriving at home, some former co-employees (and friends) got in a serious accident last night. They're a couple and engaged to be married. I guess while driving soberly, they got hit and my lady friend got seriously hurt, and potentially blind. She's such a beautiful woman, my thoughts to both of them.

Additional Tidbits

-Andrew, I have more photoshopped pictures coming your way =)
-Jeff, send me those pictures from the last night here
-Baron, I sent you my address via myspace, send the invite! And some details about accomodations and what's required of me!
-Jeannie, Thanks for mailing some things out and cleaning the apartment, as always, much appreciated.
-Erin, MUUUAAAHHH!!!!! Numba One Stunna!!
-Krissy and Mark, You guys are awesome, and we're going to make millions!
-Vinny, Some shit's coming your way soon!
-Shannon, you're a peacock!


and that's all!!!