But soft, what light through yonder window breaks?

So,

Over the past few months, I've passively tried to improve my skills as an effective communicator, a thinker before a speaker, and act with integrity in touchy social situations. This blog has acted as a buffer to absorb some of the negativity I'd typically throw upon certain people in my life.

Good blog, woof ;)

Another minor rule I set for myself here was to not to post someone's name and concurrently speak negatively about them. I just thought that was tacky and would go against the moral set I've tried to instill in myself lately. Well, as many people here say in Seattle, "All that has gone to fuck-all". To translate, this one and only time I'm going to vent, use a name, and never speak of and to this person ever again.

Heather Tucker, you are a user. You are an egregious cunt who doesn't even deserve the disdain I have for you. You're a filthy cheater, a pathological liar, and a self centered dirty ass whore.

To think that I wasted over a year of my life on your shady ass is a disservice to the sanctity of which is commonly viewed as a "relationship". You familiar with those? Relationships? Not the one nighters you so frivolously indulged in while under the guise of "being taken". But a union between 2 people bound by trust. Be that as it may, I despise you and your cruddy existence. And no longer shall my thoughts encompass you. May karma come back to you, as it has come back to me.

For those who are reading this, and know little about me, I must say that the filth in the above 2 paragraphs aren't an accurate symbol of who I am. I'm not overly vindictive, insane, and malevolent. I'm very easy going, always smiling, happy, non-chalant etc... I don't get overly angry, ever. I mean, I never get so thoroughly angry as to type out what I just did. Perhaps subsequent comments to this blog will substantiate my perceived demeanor.

So Jeannie, I've tried to roll with the "integrity" platform. But the person above deserves the previously mentioned sentiments, so.. discuss away!

Valentine's Day..

First off, pay no mind to the font. It's this way in lieu of the holiday, not because of my gayness. Well, for the first time since 2002, I'm single on a Valentine's Day. For the most part it's bittersweet. It's nice to not feel obligated to buy gifts, get time off work, or conform to the holiday's traditions. On the other hand, it sucks being alone and not having someone wake up beside me wishing me a Happy Valentine's Day. Everything listed I had anticipated. But what I did not anticipate was the feeling I would have when I would reminisce about holidays past. Nor the feeling I would have when I would think about others Valentine's Day. I kinda get the feeling that says, "oh, they're doing that...". A mixture of helplessness, distraught, and sadness.
I guess the day couldn't end sooner.

iNtRoSpEcTiVe

I'm not sure what is a dream and what is real at times. Or if real is a real word and if words even exist outside of our imagination... I still can't say for certain if falling asleep is opening your eyes in the morning or closing them at night... and I'm lonely, but not sadly. Everybody is alone. I want love like love wants love..oxygen and drifting clouds. And im not scared to be alive, nor do I fear death. These days more people are. Money is an illusion. The world has been gaining some sort of "momentum" over "time" and every single day it's spinning faster. People grow up too quick. Someday I'll start to....

1 week, complete

Just finished my 7th day in Seattle, and I have mixed emotions. For starters, I love the people I'm staying with, they're pretty fantastic. I'm basically staying here for free in exchange for my work into their companies. Jeff has said it best, "So you're basically pinball boy huh?". I really am. I do a myriad of tasks from website design, photoshop, auto glass installation, commercial window tinting and marketing. I've been made privy to a potential salary coming my way soon, which is very exciting!

Last night we had a phenomenal evening. We spent 4 hours boozing at this luxurious hotel in Kirkland while listening to Darren Isaacs play the piano (personal friend of my boss's). His music facilitated the ambiance of the evening. After that we went to a few clubs/bars where I finally met good looking Seattle women!!

I got a phone number from this pretty blond who practices at this local ballroom dancing studio. Dance Sport International is the name of the studio. We exchanged some texts last night and have been invited to come on by. I suppose I'll wait to see if I was sales pitched, or if she was looking to be social. I feel that it was the latter, but I've been burned before :).

Anyway, we hit a few more bars, screamed to Def Leppard, got some Jack in the Box and went home. Upon arriving at home, some former co-employees (and friends) got in a serious accident last night. They're a couple and engaged to be married. I guess while driving soberly, they got hit and my lady friend got seriously hurt, and potentially blind. She's such a beautiful woman, my thoughts to both of them.

Additional Tidbits

-Andrew, I have more photoshopped pictures coming your way =)
-Jeff, send me those pictures from the last night here
-Baron, I sent you my address via myspace, send the invite! And some details about accomodations and what's required of me!
-Jeannie, Thanks for mailing some things out and cleaning the apartment, as always, much appreciated.
-Erin, MUUUAAAHHH!!!!! Numba One Stunna!!
-Krissy and Mark, You guys are awesome, and we're going to make millions!
-Vinny, Some shit's coming your way soon!
-Shannon, you're a peacock!


and that's all!!!

#*$&&@ Gay

So. the part of my laptop in which my power cord goes into has broken@*##!$$# it fucking sucks because I have a lot of work to do. Oh well, I'll get over it. I'm making a brochure for this custom auto place. They airbrush vehicles, do custom bodies, build stereo systems etc. Sooooo I have to use a different laptop that doesn't belong to me :(.

Anyway, that's stupid shit to complain about. Getting the vehicle is looking more realistic each day, I have work as an insurance adjuster coming up, and the weekend is coming soooon!!! So I can say life is going well, I'm glad I'm here and I'm glad even while here I'm maintaining friendships at home while nurturing new ones as well! I love and miss you everyone!

Seattle for 24 hours now!!

Yep, have been gone for 24 hours. Hasn't sank in yet, this blog will know when it has :). Thanks for a great night everyone. I had a few people in mind that I was supposed to see before I left, yet it turned into a giant high school reunion at the Ironwood! Special thanks to Jeff, Andrew, Vinny, Erin, Z, Shannon and her boy for meeting up with me. Probably the most important friends in my life on a mulitude of levels, great to see ya before I went. Please send me pictures from the evening! And Jeff, get your camera from my sister!!!!

Speaking of my sister, thanks for keeping cool after I fell asleep for 2 hours and subsequently missed my flight :). I wonder if things would have gone so smoothly with my dog had I been on the flight I was originally scheduled for? Food for thought.

Been here for nearly 24 hours. Wii bowling, double Patron margaritas, travel, and sleep have been my experience here thus far. Tomorrow is work though and I'm excited!

Got to see the car I'll be buying a white BMW 325i with white leather. I'm totally impressed, can't wait to put her to use. Leave some love!!

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WHOOOAA.. Totally moved away from everything I know on January 26th! Missed my original flight so I had to standby!! (Thanks ERIN!). Regardless I got here, with my DOG! Everyone loved him on the plane. Stewardesses, flight attendents, pilots, janitors. Hell, he laid in the middle of Chicago's O'Hare International Airport getting his belly rubbed!! What a good boy. Ok, enough about my dog, kinda creepy.. I live in Richmond Beach, WA and I welcome everybody to come visit this fantastic city. I will foot some of the bill just to enjoy all my friends company out here. I work at a myriad of places including a commercial window tinting company and a marketing firm. I am in the process of inheriting of BMW 325i with white leather. So.. life is good!