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December 15th, 2008

Here's to the proof of the pudding...

So, I've finished my 3 days in Pittsburgh and 7 in Cleveland. Currently I'm on the plane from Pittsburgh to Minneapolis to catch a subsequent flight to Seattle. As I'm here cramped in a 34 seat little jet, I wonder what kind of impression I made on my loved ones.

If you follow this at all, you may remember that I wasn't sure as to how I was going to be viewed coming home. I could end this entry and say, "ok everyone.. same ole John? or.. "insert comment here"?

But, this entry will be far too long.

Insert: I don't care how people generally perceive me. Only the people that I respect and love do I care about their views.

So what did I do while I was home? Well, first I would like to apologize to those I missed. I hope you can forgive me, for I had to squeeze a month's worth of people into a week, and it just was hard.

Moving on, I'm actually a bit sad with a splash of satisfied about my visit. I feel that I mended some relationships certainly worth mending, or at the very least, inserted the thread into them. Other people, as previously mentioned, I missed. (sorry again).

Others I brought hope to, and 1 person in particular, in my mind, I had a fantastic, honest, and very forthcoming talk with. I guess I never could see it then, but there is certainly something special about this person, and if she asks me if I'm referring to her, I most certainly will admit it. She's just a grand iteration of some of the very best characteristics I'm looking for in another person. The path to her heart is nowhere near as navigable as it used to be, and it's never good to force an issue such as this one. I will say this though, if in some manner she gave me the time of day again, then I can ensure you readers and you too miss that I will make her a very, very happy woman for a very long time. That's where I'm at with it, and that's how I truly feel about it.

I assisted in throwing my friend of 18 years a bachelor party, with the help of another mended friendship, I hope we gave him something he will never forget. I was also humbled at his wedding by him, the brides maids, the bride's mom.. so there is hope for me! I pretty much remember what I said over the mic in speaking about my married buddy:

"How is everyone doing tonight, are we having a great time? *clapping*. Well, I would just like to thank Andrew and Colin for having me here this evening, it's certainly humbling. And with that, Andrew, has been my friend for the better part of 20 years. And when I say the better part I truly mean it, Andrew's enriched my life in so many ways and hey man, thank you. One thing in particular that comes to mind is when we were kids I'd go over Andrew's house.. oh, all the time. And, ya know he had games and a basketball hoop at his house. Well, for some reason, I thought I could beat him at these things. Everything he owned, that I didn't, I had to bet him. And, I always lost, so, at the very least, I hope that, that contribution helped out the wedding this evening, lol. I'm kidding.. but thanks Andrew, Colin.... Jeff?"

What else happened. Well I got a hold of my dad's old acoustic guitar, ghetto strung it, and wrote a song. This song has been an outlet for me (and my friends and family, I apologize for drilling it down your throat!). Anyway, the song has accomplished numerous things, exhibited numerous emotions, and hell, makes me cry while playing it. But in reality, I would like to dedicate it to one person (Sibling, I know I said otherwise, we'll talk later). I spoke of her earlier in this post and, it never hurts to try :D.

So what else did I do? Did some business, energy films with a long time friend, who confided in me in a few ways that only strengthen our friendship (short time, best friend, just want ya around). Was at the library a lot, Deadwood (truth will set you free), Buddy does seattle, jeannie and my egg crate, me being a puppy, cheeses of the world, missing angie and mom, giving steve his yvengling, teaching my nieces the guitar, playing with Tone till the night I left.. rock on dude.. in this context I, at the very least, can see a nice friendship develop. Hanging with my girls in Pittsburgh, oranges scrapping by my nose while tailgating in BROWNS clothing in Shitsburgh ;). getting completely wasted a few nights, dave and busters, dominating jump rope, confiding in a mended friend, making amends with another friend at the bachelor party, meeting a new friend who is "a joy to the world". I usually don't use names here but Jeannie, you are freaking amazing. Keeping my head on straight, tolerating my puppiness, and helping in a variety of ways. Maybe I've garnered some of your habits, it'd only benefit me if I did, thank you. Sorry for staying at my bud's too long, that certainly wasn't purposeful. Pizzas, orange juice, removing neck ties, preaching on a podium, handing my buddy his marriage rings, flirting with bride's maids, drinking bottles of champagne when no one else was, Thanks Neil and Dave and Buster's, what a stand up guy. Drunken basketball shooting, stupid tvs, Popov!, Oil and wax!, Thursday afternoon grease barn!, a long, long late at night talk followed by a ride in an alien car :D. Thank you Pissman's parents, your amazing! Not you Kayla. Know how cool her parents are? knowing that we were going out, they left foood and drink for us so when we got home we could eat it.. and did we? oh we did. Stealing food! dropping goolash, handing out MGD's to homeless people. Geez, the more I write, the more it feels like I've fit a lifetime into 10 days... peeing on stuff, UV vodka!
Pabst NA.. and chugging it? bad wine..

Thanks everyone, I hope I enriched your lives even somewhat.. for I know you certainly enriched mine. Tomorrow is going to be a long day... but I'm getting by

:D